Wednesday, August 15, 2007

“How?” I ask

I’ve been away for so long.
So much has happened in the last few months, I bought a new car, got confirmed at my job (meaning I’m not under probation any more), I got a raise too.
Most importantly and the most life altering event in the past month is the fact that my sido (grandfather), my dad’s father, passed away on 23rd of July.
He passed away after a long struggle with many illnesses, one of which was cancer.
I’m not going to pretend that I had a special relationship with sido, I didn’t, but what I had for him was great respect, I also was and still am very proud to be his granddaughter.
The interesting and weird part at the same time is the fact that he was a very passive person, he didn’t say much almost all the time.
When he did speak, we all listened, he would talk about politics, people he knows, people he knew, humorous past events… everyone listened, not because they were interested, but because when he speaks, everyone listens.
And now he’s gone.
I remember that the night before he passed away, I was supposed to visit him at the hospital, but I told myself that I’d do it the next day or the day after.
I remember that my mom called me 20 minutes after I got to work, she miss called me on my cell, it was then that I realized that my office phone was disconnected. I connected it and called her, she asked me why my phone was disconnected and I told her that I just got to work and didn’t get to connecting my phone. Then she told me that my grandfather passed away, I remember that all I managed to say was “How?”.

Thursday, May 31, 2007


I hate having to say this, but I’ve made my decision: to drop someone out of my life.
This is so trivial it’s not ever worth stating or writing about how I feel.
Some people are just that: trivial, and not even worth having or dealing with, they’re just like fungus or parasites that live off of other people.

I am going to buy a car though, I’ll post something about it once I get it, because right now I’m torn between two.

Friday, May 25, 2007


He doesn’t have to live with the consequences of his decisions, we do. And he could care less, at the end of the day he gets the bigger room and the sunlight.
Sent: 12:00 noon on May 25th 2007.

Thursday, May 24, 2007


I in all honesty am stranded.
I have no one to turn to.
I’m selfish. Rescue me.